Crazy Beautiful

I always wanted to be a married lady. There was something about planning a wedding and being married that always sounded, so right to me. When I was 7 a David's Bridal catalog came in the mail and I ran to my room and holed myself up there until I had my whole wedding planned. I picked a halter style ball gown that I thought was the most beautiful dress I have ever seen, I assigned my bridesmaids long hunter green dresses and I picked out a song for every pivotal moment in my wedding. From that moment on weddings sort of became my life.

And planning my wedding had become a yearly tradition for me. Almost every year I planned my wedding and almost every time my wedding was completely different from the one I mapped out before. I had a million different ideas for the flowers. I always had a different idea of where and when I'd want to get married. And I never could decide on a single style of wedding dress. That was my life from ages 7 to 20. I loved weddings, I adored weddings, I wanted to be as involved in all things wedding as I possibly could. I volunteered at my church with the wedding ministry and completely immersed myself in the wedding world. But as I got older, and I continued to be the constant single lady I began to believe I would never be able to actually plan my wedding. Well that all changed when I met (and fell in love) with Matt DeBall. 

I met him and almost immediately my life changed. I went from being a me and became a we. I stopped using I and began using us. In an instant I became someone's other half and I honestly could not be happier. And now I am planning my actual wedding. And now that I'm planning my wedding for real, I have begun to notice something. The wedding that I am actually having, is 100% unlike any wedding I ever imagined. Instead of a summer wedding with pink peonies everywhere, me wearing a frothy ball gown, my girls wearing short and elegant light pink frocks, and a star lit reception...I am having a winter evening wedding. The flowers are all a dark purple and ivory, my girls will be wearing floor length dark purple chiffon gowns, my dress as of now is completely up in the air, and instead of a star lit reception I am planning a cozy indoor party for our amazing families and closest friends. Sometimes I think I am completely crazy for planning a wedding while working two jobs, finishing up my senior year at college, and trying to lose some pounds before the big day. But you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way. Life is crazy beautiful and my journey to becoming Mrs. DeBall has been nothing short of crazy and beautiful. 

My love and I